Dipping Into The Well
Like many of you, I was looking forward to 2021 and the end of 2020.…and yet, I have found my energy resources low, strained and sometimes, completely gone. Settling into a New Year with the baggage from 2020 took a hard seat on my shoulders. I feel the full weight and gravity of what our community has been through, and what many of us are still struggling with.
In addition to dealing with the pandemic, and the aftermath of back-to-back fires, evacuations, and power outages like many of you have endured, I went through a divorce. Throughout this experience, not only did I separate from my life partner, I separated from my business partner. What was once shared had to be split down the middle, including assets, property, and business. Since the separation, I moved four times in three years, and lost friends.
The pillars that once held my life together — and the stability that once was — was shattered. For me, the last three years has provided a loss of footing, which left me in survival mode. I was a version of myself that was hardly recognized at times.
Like many of you, I continued to put one foot in front of the other, even when I didn’t recognize the path and trusted — trusted that I would find my footing again. I continued to make withdrawals from my own “well”, even though it was empty most of the time. I managed to get through each day, calloused to anyone and anything that pulled me down emotionally.
I put on my warrior face.
I did the work.
I got through each day.
The thought of beginning again, creating again, being inspired to do something new, again, was an energy I haven’t had for a long time, and wondered if I would ever have it again.
Earlier this month I reached the realization that it’s time to move on, move forward and put some LIFE back into living. I needed to pivot and refill. The survival mode I was living in was not sustainable, and I started noticing the physical toll it was taking on my body.
The pure survival mode we’ve all been in carries its own weight. It’s my mission to put the JOY, the PLAY and the INSPiRATION back into living a joy-filled life every day.
We do not know what the future holds. As we’ve learned, the best laid plans can come crashing down in an instant. We can put one foot in front of the other with as much passion as possible, so when we arrive in the unknown future, we are not drained with an empty well.
For me, my passion is sparked by DOING, and living Sadhana as I wrote about last month in my blog.
So, I kicked off 2021 by doing these things, and filling up my well with things that fuels my joy:
I got certified in a new format so I can bring more movement to our community.
I am taking a deep dive into my yoga studies so I can tap into the power of my mind, body & spirit.
I am jumpstarting my internal health by eating better, sleeping more and hydrating.
I am reaching out to others in my healing journey.
By doing these things, I feel better. I can see a glimpse of the old version of me coming back to life. I can see my own well starting to fill up. I can feel the weight of everything that I’ve gone through in the last three years, lifting off of my shoulders.
I’m starting to feel alive.
I’m starting to feel better.
I’m starting to feel energized.
I’m no longer “waiting for things to return to normal”. This is my new normal. It’s time to pivot and rejuvenate. We are in a new year, and a new season. Let’s put some LIFE back into living, and fill our own well, so when we need to dip out of our well, we have something to get. Let’s do this together!
As a 3-time Worlds Gold medalist and 20-year business owner, I’ve learned that change takes time. It takes little, consistent steps every day, and it’s the little steps that make the big leaps and bounds possible.
What are you waiting for?
What are you doing every day that fills you up?
Are you holding onto old habits that no longer serve?
Where can you pivot?
It’s our natural instinct to be “ok” to put on the warrior face. It’s times like these that we must force ourselves to turn towards each other, not away. To reach out, not just in. I find it very difficult to reveal my own personal struggles, when in truth, it’s our struggles that bind us, bring us together, and remind us that although we all ride our own wave, we are in the same ocean.
If not now…When?
Jennifer Fujii
Inspired Fitness Training Center, Founder & Owner